Thursday, October 01, 2009

Is Gone...

"Hiposa ng Racumin inig kahuman og gamit, para di na kan-on sa ilaga..."

On the day I turned 25th, the home I used to go home is gone. It's not because of bagyong Ondoy, but because my parents and kid brother left for US as immigrants. Me and my big bro are left here to stay -- me in Cebu, and he in Manila.

Those fun times I had with my parents, most especially my mother, would be a distant memory now.

Those times where my mother would order Margarita as a drink together with her meal because it's 10% off during lunch time; her texts which are always accompanied by a miss call every after she sends one (she said she miss call so that she'll know for sure that her text would not amount to naught knowing that the phone rang - what if it didn't?), her God-knows-what abbreviated SMS messages that even an expert can't decipher (including herself!), her allergies towards anything non-native poultry and almost all seafood.

Those times too where my kid bro will ask me to buy him shoes and he goes directly to a Nike store, those mealtimes in restaurants where we would bicker with my mother and siblings on what to order because mom is so choosy with what to eat.

Those times when my brother goes back to Manila wearing slippers, because father tells my big bro that he has nice shoes.

Yes, those times.

It was a whirlwind, I was minding my own job in Cebu one day, the next day I was in Bohol, the following day I was in Manila, the next thing I was holding back my tears as we bade them farewell and take care and ayo-ayo and what else we muttered under our breaths. And my mother mouthed the words Happy Birthday beside that stupid glass window that was separating us.

Well, I didn't regret anything I've done with my family. I've spent quite some time with them and an awful lot of my money. Hehehe... It sounds like the end, just like Gayle's blog about Precious. But no, no distance can separate me from my family because they stay in my heart.

Monday, May 04, 2009

Movie Review: Changeling


If I were a college teacher of Politics, I would show this film to my students. There was a striking similarity of Collin's situation with Filipinos.

She was speaking of the truth, however, she was branded a liar and delusional, Moreso, she is accused of discrediting the government, more particularly the police department for her insistence.

She was speaking of her missing child, replaced by an impostor who cannot be, both physically and psychologically, be her son.

My son is not circumcised, and he's 2 inches taller, she insisted. But what did the police do? They sent out a doctor to their place and investigated the matter and gave ridiculous explanations for the discrepancies.

Because of her insistence and making it known publicly, she was "thrown" to the mental hospital -- the police doesn't want "thrown" to be the operative word, they want "escorted" instead -- for she kept insisting on something that makes the police look bad.

Doesn't this sounds like Lozada's case?

Just watch the movie and make the comparison yourself. I'm tired of this Philippine politics crap.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Hey Look At the Sun

ay peskot gitag diay ko. pirti pa nakong katawaa sa akong gibuhat. tan-awn nko'g ma back ba... ay na back jud diay...

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Hey Look at the Sun - Sitti Navarro
Hey! instead of the sun, look at this post! demit.


WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Tonight - FM Static
I don't even understand this song.


WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Stellar - Incubus
High, if that's what it means. lulz.

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Heaven Let Your Light Shine Down - Collective Soul
I am THE ONE.

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Pinoy Ako - Orange & Lemons
WTF? I'm a nationalist! or whatever is left of me as a student activist.

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Vival la Vida - Coldplay
Live the life. that's my hobby. Very apt.

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Ensaymada - Agipo
Harharhar! so meaning to say i'm sour??? This is a funny song with sexual overtones. So is it what I would have achieved? or missed?

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
7 Words - Deftones
Still going wild...

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
F.U. - Bamboo
Like gani!!!


WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Dumb - Nirvana
Hahahahaha!!! I hate Nirvana from now on.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Gugma - Agadiers
Nah, incorrect

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
I Miss You - Incubus
Yeah, I miss you.

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
With a Smile - Eraserheads
Duh?

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Revolution 909 - Daft Punk
Hey! I remember Ms. Portia saw me last last week in Bohol, ICM and asked if I've finished school. When I told her I went AWOL, she accused me going up the mountains! She went as far as saying that for Pol Sci people, we would go LOA or AWOL as part of the curriculum to have an "immersion" in the red countryside, if you know what I mean.

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Block Rockin' Beats - Chemical Brothers
I don't block, rock, nor beat. How do I suppose to make sense out of it?

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Stay Together for the Kids - Blink 182
Sacrifice. char.

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Apologize - One Republic ft. Timbaland
Yeah, I'm apologetic. blah blah blah.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Everafter - Bonnie Bailey
AHA! so i'm thinking of the after life? that's my purpose? to live the after life?

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
No Rain - Blind Melon
I'm bored. Let's drink. - kai corleone

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Stolen - Dashboard Confessional
hahaha... i have a penchant of stealing somebody else's girl. lol...

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Vindicated - Dashboard Confessional
I never felt vindicated in any way. what is there to be vindicated about anyway?

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Breathe - Telepopmusik
ahahahaha! Just breathe...

i tag nako si kai corleone! teeheeheehee... for instructions check out: http://goddessezie.multiply.com/journal/item/100/You_Wanted_More

Saturday, February 07, 2009

Valentime's Day

- SMS -

“You have only been gone ten days, but already I’m wasting away” – Incubus

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I’m going to sleep now with a single thought in mind: You.

- no reply -

- deadma epek -

- methinks she might be sleeping already, ok… -

*********************

~ it was fun! we stayed in an inexpensive hotel and it was worth the budget. that night, we met with kaloy and ate at buto’t balat and the seafood was great! i asked sir mike what to order here and he said talaba tol! with much enthusiasm. and we also went to guimaras! it was really fun!

- rik blinks, chari winks -

~ and then and then? what did you do in guimaras?

- chari asks -

~ yeah! it was super fun we bathed under the howling and icy wind in alubihod beach with waves half my height.

- chari grins, rik gleans -

~ why do you keep on repeating it was fun?

- thinking mode -

*was i assuring myself that it was fun? no, it’s just rik messing up with my head*

- fast forward -

~ it’s ok dwin, don’t worry about it. now that make’s two of you. *evil laugh*

- chari says, rik nods; chari laughs, rik laughs some more -

*they’re quite a team, a buffoon duo. regardless, i thought i have a date this valentines but it faded as quickly as it appeared*

Tayo nalang mag date!

Friday, December 19, 2008

Full Stop

The valleys down below are carpeted with the early morning mist, like fog that covers the dawn after an all night rain.

Thick as if hiding something; cold and damp, as if in a deep and snugly slumber -- reminiscent of its countless glorious mornings.

The light of dawn slowly floods the sky, and the shy, soft and yellow rays of the sun basks the whole landscape; slowly dispersing the mist, revealing inch by inch the beautiful, lush, and green scenery.

I shudder before this awesome creation, and rub myself for warmth. A full stop, I realize. For this brief and humbling moment I'm in communion with my Creator.

The bus snakes its way in the forest, in the cordilleras of Bukidnon where the soil is red, the pines grow in abundance, and mountains kiss the clouds. Us, a foreign element intruding in this rather picturesque landscape.

I slowly seem to become a part of this gigantic canvass, connecting the betweens of troughs and crests of these intersecting peaks. A single dot in this outline; a single hue in this colorful sight.

A lone tree passes by, proud and sturdy standing in this august morning reverent of the powerful sun that gives it its life. Its roots comfortably etched among the weeds, soil, pebbles, worms and all the unnoticed building blocks of earth.

In this blessed moment I could not help but shed a tear; I murmur a silent prayer to the Prime Mover who humbles me in front of His creation. I give thanks for this all too easy and comfortable life I am having, conveniences I never have had before, and opportunities like this that I would remember for my entire lifetime.


Into Everything [Album Version] - Telepopmusik

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Meeting a Trotsky

I downed 4 bottles of strong ice from the previous tambayan with my sis' and I felt awesome as I was conversing with him. Now I'm on my sixth tonight, but it didn't hamper the clarity of the ideologies I once had, or have been dormant within me.

He's a cook in one of the drinking places in Lahug he told me, but he's doing this to make a living. Because music doesn't give him that much, it doesn't feed him that much. He shared his disdain with Bamboo singing those nationalistic songs but his backdrop is Colt 45, which he perceives to be Capitalist. He's young in this, I noted. Full of enthusiasm and idealistic fervor.

I asked him if he sell cd's of his song Vigilante but he said he don't, but he's compiling them.

~ What do think of my songs? Do they appeal to the masses?
~ Well, for sure it does. It's in our mother tongue, and people who hears it understands it and appreciates it. (Or so I hope.)
~ So what do you think about vigilantes? Or how do you think the people in Cebu thinks about them?
~ I uh, for me, (for some reason Sir Mike comes to mind) I am against the taking away of life, regardless of whatever reason it is.

Our conversations drifted to a lot of topics, mostly covering history, and the left of the political spectrum. The application of Socialism in both Russia and Cuba are interesting, we both agree. For some reason China was nowhere in our topic, probably because the present market of China is more of a capitalist framework, or so we blindly attribute.

~ Have you read about the Critical Theory? This is one of the forerunners of neo-Marxists thoughts prevalent among the academics, if I'm not mistaken. I understand that you're not Marxist, like what Karl Marx declared himself, "If anything is certain, it is that I myself am not a Marxist!"
~ No, I don't know about that. (Scribbles down on his notebook Critical Theory and underlined it multiple times.)

The waitress asked us to pay for our bill since they're already closing. I paid our drinks, and we continued rambling...

He tried to explain to me his belief in Trotsky's ideals. He was not a Maoist nor Leninist he declared, he's a Trotskian, or whatever you call them. For some reason, perhaps it was the beer, or perhaps he was not able to express it clearly, as to what he meant by that or whatever those ideals were.

Apart from the law-yakking of Gayle, this one was a cerebral breather.

Thursday, September 04, 2008

Queer

A change of five pesos for a ten peso coin as fare;
Two sodas for a twenty peso bill from a soda dispenser;
A sexy girl flirted with me with her tongue.

It all amounted to this.
No, this --
A collapse of some sort;
Anger and hurt mixed like coal and fire
stoked by repression and guilt.

It hurts to love.

Food for Thought

Tado: Erning, pag bubuhatin kita, tapos bubuhatin mo ako, lilipad ba tayo?
Erning: Tama!